It's that time of the year when everyone pledges their New Year's resolutions! I have a few goals that I want to achieve in 2016 so I thought I'd put them on my blog and make them a bit more official. I'm hoping it will give me some extra motivation. That, and I don't have one of those fancy Happiness Planners!
1) The thing that is playing on my mind most at the moment is the amount of weight I've put on since my wedding. The backstory is that two years ago, I was at my heaviest weight ever and took the decision to join Slimming World. I lost around 1.5 stones fairly quickly and then I got less disciplined. I managed to lose another half a stone by the end of 2014. Then around April last year, I booked my wedding for September so managed to lose another half a stone or so before the big day. This took me to my lowest weight in over 10 years which felt incredible. Then after the wedding, I felt like there was nothing else to look forward to. I'd bought my first home, turned 30, got married and went on my honeymoon, all in 2015, so I took to eating and shopping (I'll come back to this), A LOT! Now I'm almost 2 stones heavier than I was in September. I posted this on instagram just to show how bad things have gotten. My before and after photos are the wrong way round! Anyway, to end this long story, I NEED to lose weight. Not only do I need to get back to where I was in September, I still need to lose around another stone on top of that. However, instead of doing Slimming World, I've ordered the plan by The Body Coach, called 90 Days Shift, Shape and Sustain. I'm nervous and I know it's going to be a lot of hard work, but I need a new challenge. I want to get fit and healthy in 2016!
2) I NEED to learn to drive. I've put it off for way too long. At first I blamed a lack of money, then putting other things first but now I don't live as close to town or my parents' house or work, I feel like I rely on my husband too much for driving me places or I spend too much time getting angry over buses! I like a good bus rant on Twitter though! The top and bottom of it, is that I'm scared to learn to drive. I had one really bad driving lesson and then the instructor kept cancelling future lessons so it knocked my confidence even further. That was over 2 years ago so it's time to draw a line under that experience, (wo)man up and get on with it!
3) Cut down on shopping. As you know, I love a good haul. Too much so. I'm on a decent wage so I can generally afford to treat myself. However, last year was an expensive year and I was ok saving most of my money for a little while, but then I got bored and started overspending a little. By the end of the year when my money was freed up and I was quite down (the massively over-eating and over-shopping phase), things got very spendy. One too many Michael Kors bags were purchased. Several too many foundations, lipsticks, any other makeup items were purchased. I have a little bit of money on my credit card to pay back and a massive collection of things I'm not using. Sometimes I get a bit carried away and I'm buying things for the buzz or for the photo I can put on instagram or the blog post I can write (that often doesn't get written). I'm not one of these big bloggers who gets sent the majority of stuff they are posting. I am paying for it with my own money (and a little borrowed) so this needs to be cut down now. Crazy woman! So, I need to find other things to do rather than shopping. Whilst it cheers me up in the short term, I then get the guilt afterwards or that sparkly new purchase doesn't seem so fun a few hours after I've instagrammed it. I need to pay off any money that I owe and I also need to put savings away for nice home things and maybe a holiday. Plus those driving lessons and I would quite like a car once I've (hopefully) passed my driving test!
4) Learn to be happy. I feel like I've gotten way too negative lately. I need to learn to be more positive and happy. I think some of the above actions will alleviate some of the anxiety I've been feeling however I also think I need to appreciate the simple things more. I maybe need to spend less time on social media and more quality time relaxing and laughing with my husband. I need to take more bubble baths. I need to think of fun things to do with my time when I'm not at work. One thing I do is ruin my time when I'm not at work, by thinking about how much I don't want to go to work. Sundays, for example, are one of my two days off a week, but I spend most of the day dreading the working week again. This should not be the case. Life is short and I need to find happy things to do. I know one obvious solution might be to find a job I love but I spent a year trying to find a job I liked, then ended up back at the same place. I've been back two years. The shine has well and truly worn off! The only way I'm going to get a job doing something I love is if I'm paid to do something with beauty and possibly shopping. I think the chances of that are pretty slim up in Newcastle, so I think I'm going to have to make the best of what I've got right now! PMA - I'm ready for you!
Wow, that was quite wordy! I guess I just wanted to be totally honest about how I'm feeling and what I want to achieve/change in 2016. Wish me luck!
What are your goals for 2016?